If you’ve been following me on Twitter, you’ll know how hard things have been for the last four months. Actually, probably more like four years, but let’s keep this in perspective and deal with the here and now. I would consider this week to be my rock bottom point. Everything that can go wrong, has gone wrong, including being locked out of my own blog. I got access again, obviously.
But this morning I woke up at 4am after a really weird dream, which I can’t even remember now. I got up, got a drink and then when I lay back down, I had a quote I heard years ago floating around my head.
“Rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.” J. K. Rowling
It’s unlikely, although not impossible that I will ever reach her level of success. I wouldn’t say I’m a particular fan of her either but in amongst all the wizards and mythical creatures she comes up with some really deep and meaningful shit.
So, for no real reason, I decided that today I would go out and get myself a job. Paid or unpaid, it doesn’t matter. Once I finish writing, I’m going to put on a suit, straighten my hair and get some
war paint make-up on and venture out. I’m going to convince someone I’m worth taking a chance on. And I’m not coming home until I do. It will be a fresh start.
Wish me luck! I’ll post an update on how it went tomorrow.