You know how you look at a word for too long and it just doesn’t look like it should even be a word any more? As luck would have it, the word I have chosen for today’s topic is prosperity and I am now questioning whether this is a real word or if I’ve made it up. Yes, I’m that tired. So, for the purposes of my A to Z Blogging Challenge, P is for Prosperity, which is something that is definitely at the top of my wish list. How can it not be? Doesn’t everyone want to prosper? Prosperity means different things to different people but I’m not going to lie to you. To me, it’s financial. It’s funny, because prosperity would have meant something quite different to me ten years ago.
Over the last decade, it’s fair to say that I have not experienced much in the way of prosperity. The bills have been piling up, my books aren’t selling, my blog was making zero, my little kitchen-table perfumery died on its arse and the only freelance work I could get was by offering my skills dirt cheap. I can’t tell you how much that affected my confidence, in a way that I had never experienced before. In my teens, I was broke but I was young and naive enough to believe that it didn’t matter if I had a job or not at that point in time because I was going to get one and then be a millionaire by the time I was 30. I don’t know how I thought I was going to do it, but I believed it would happen. I’m now in my 30s. I am obviously not a millionaire and being broke has been a much harsher experience.
However, I am still naive enough to believe that I’ll be a millionaire by the time I’m 50! Ha!
I work my arse off, so there’s not reason why I can’t at least prosper. To me, prosperity doesn’t really mean making millions, but it does mean making enough to get off Carer’s Allowance and stop relying on government handouts to make ends meet. On my 30th birthday, I never imagined that I would end up losing so much in the decade that followed, but here I am. I guarantee you that I’m going to get it all back, and then some. Again, I don’t know how it’s going to happen, but I believe it will.
As a carer, my options for work are limited, which is why I am building an online business, studying for a distance learning degree and writing in every spare second I get. It hasn’t paid off yet. Nothing has paid off yet, but it will. I just have to keep working and believing. Both blogging and writing can be a bit like mining. You work and work and work and you feel like you’re getting nowhere then suddenly, one day, there’s a diamond. I think business is a bit like that too. You build it for a long time but you don’t see the benefits instantly. However, I’ve never been successful enough in any business venture to say if that is absolutely true, but I think it is.
Once I have financial comfort again, maybe prosperity will start to mean something different, like creative fulfilment or something like that. What does prosperity mean to you?
I’m a bit late in posting this today because I ran out of scheduled posts and I was working in the shop but over on my A to Z of Nanowrimo, there’s a post about P for Pep Talks. Tomorrow on Rock Paper Spirit, if I can get my arse in gear, I’ll be writing about Q for Queen of Stars and Smoke. If you have no idea what that means, you’re not alone because I don’t either. So, why am I writing about this? You’ll have to visit to find out!